Illuminate The Dark With Your Light
Welcome to another update to This Adult Child. This is the third re-direct, and may not be the last. In the beginning my intention was to educate and support Adult Children of Alcoholics through podcasting. I set a goal to publish a podcast and I did it. In the end it didn’t feel quite right, so I decided not to create another podcast.
If you have ever met me you know I LOVE interacting with people. I have been told I have a great energy. Turns out, sitting in my basement in my mattress lined closet talking into a microphone is not the way I want to be in support.
When I got the idea to do the podcast it felt very twilight zonesque. I had been re-introduced to the ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics, a 12 step program), I had just been introduced to podcasts, and then I listened to Big Magic By Elizabeth Gilbert. In Big Magic Gilbert talks about her opinion that ideas want to be manifest in the world, they are floating around waiting for the right person to come along. These ideas come into our consciousness and we can choose to partner with them, or not.
When the idea to create the podcast attacked me one morning while I was meditating, I felt electrified. I was excited to use my voice to speak about the ACA and my experience as an Adult Child. This is a topic people are not talking about, but which affects a great number of people around the world.
When recently revisiting Big Magic, something else Gilbert said really hit home for me. If we are to live creative lives, it’s important to do it for ourselves. If we do something with the soul intent to save others, others can feel the heaviness of that intent. If we want to live the best creative lives, we do it for ourselves and if it helps others, great!
This has inspired the most recent update to This Adult Child. I am not here to save anyone but myself. The idea of writing in a structured way to provide information about the ACA, felt really heavy and un-motivating to me. This made keeping up with my website a drag. If I am not in love with what I am creating, then it’s quite wild to expect anyone else to enjoy it.
I am here to share myself with you. If my thoughts, feelings, and experiences help you, that’s the cherry on top!
The past week or so I found myself truly struggling. I was overcome by thoughts about not being good enough, not having enough, not doing enough, and on, and on. I know these things aren’t true, but when I am in the grips of them it’s hard to see a way out. My partner and… Read more
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.… Read more
In the book Feel The Fear and Do It Anyway, Susan Jeffers talks about the Pollyanna attitude. She points out pessimism is no more realistic than optimism. Pollyanna an excessively or blindly optimistic person Dictionary.com She begs the question why do we see optimism as unrealistic? I ask. What’s realistic about Murphy’s Law, what can… Read more
Say yes to life! Say yes to the rain, snow, and wind. Say yes to the bills, the unforseen car repair, the loss of a loved one. Say yes, because to say no is to waste your precious life energy fight what is or what has been. I hate this weather one might think. This… Read more
I decided to knit and watch the movie Click staring Adam Sandler last night. I like the moral of this story. In the movie (spoiler if you haven’t seen it) Sandler is looking for the next big break at work, putting his family on hold until some day when things get better, when he is… Read more
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